Living in the In-Between.

 Well, well, well. It's been a minute hasn't it? I'll go into more detail on Thursday about why I've been MIA for the last few weeks, but for now I want to get into a space I feel like I've been in for a minute.

For most of my adult life I feel like I've been in the in-between. Like being in between taking something personally and recognizing disrespect; being intentional and stubborn; delayed not denied and redirection from rejection. Of course the secret to all of this is discernment. Unfortunately no matter how much I've prayed, I don't think I've gotten that gift yet so I'm currently trying to figure out when it's time to fight for what I want and when to let it go. 

As on brand as I can be, my career (*rolls eyes* oh, brother) journey has been anything but linear. Did I go to school for something I believed I was great at? Sure did, but the results of my passion just ain't cutting it for me. Even as I get closer to my 10 years post graduation date, I find myself wondering what I have to show for the 10 years since. No husband, kids, senior role, or even additional degrees. I may be focusing on lack when I list this, but it's something I feel should be noted here. 

The in-between is a funny place. Full of confusion and what-ifs, but could it also be a place that forces you to change your thinking in a more positively delusional way? I think we all can agree everything is mental right? Then maybe I can redirect my thoughts away from being in between emotions and just be. LOL easier said than done, but I'm going to try.

Well, that's all for now. Byeee!