Workplace Romances.

 As someone who has always had very hard lines drawn in the sand surrounding dating and being friends with coworkers, here I am today as someone who not only has befriended their coworkers and tell them intimate details about my life (some have even gone so far to have introduced me to their own friend group) but I'm also crushing on several coworkers???? It's embarrassing honestly. When I think of dating or even just entertaining someone at work it sounds like hell. But I can name a few people who have met and married their coworker and have stayed married. My manager, a girl I went to college with, hell Brad and Angie (that didn't end well though but stay with me here).

There's a coworker who from the day I was hired I found attractive, but I thought he was gay. Then when I found out he was in a relationship I thought he was with a white woman, turns out he doesn't find white women attractive and is VERY BLACK okay? He exudes qualities of someone I would want to be with. Like leading and being gentlemanly just being IN him, ya know? During my licensing studies he once *ordered* me to follow him so he could help me with material I wasn't understanding. The way in which he said this did something to me I don't feel comfortable typing out for others to read. He is now a very single pringle and skin just be glowing when he walks around. Every time I see him I'm like "damn". Now because I was hired with him and we're friend adjacent I don't want to ruin anything that's there, but I'm fighting an internal battle because I know that SHOOTERS SHOOT.

The other crush I have is a divorced dad of 2, who the first time I saw him in July on Zoom I was stopped in my tracks and texted another coworker asking "who tf is thissss?" Lol She thinks I have a thing for bald men so she said she just "knew I would say something". I hated proving her right, but physically this man is FINE okay? After a few weeks of him being around in person, my initial attraction faded because his personality is a lot and I'm usually attracted to quiet/calm men. So for 7 months I've been going back and forth on if I should just keep our relationship strictly work related with a sprinkle of flirting. Which.....we are pretty flirty at work. It's fun though because it makes me feel less rusty lol. Just this week he asked if I was looking for a roommate and told me "you have my number you should use it".....baby all I need is a green light and I'm on GO like Grizz. But this back and forth is cool for now I guess.

I spoke to one of my younger coworkers about this and she reminded me about workplace proximity, which is a reference to Big Bang Theory, but what she was saying is how it's natural to develop something for people you see so often every week. This of course gives to pause to move forward because if either of us get another job, what will happen there?? I don't want to think of it. So for now, my crushes will stay just that because having HR in my business is the last thing I want to do.

Well, that's all for now...byeee!