Leaps of Faith.

Idk about you, but this pandemic has really made space for lots of rest and releasing. Releasing things (or people) that no longer serve you and honestly making you have no other choice but to sit your ass down. In the last 2 years I've gone through all emotions imaginable! This year though, I had a really strong desire to make something shake in my life and it  became very urgent in the summer. In January told myself this would be my last season working the customer service job I was grateful enough to get during the pandemic. I had given myself 9 months (which was the end of that season) to save enough money to move to a city I've dreamed of since I was 22 years old.

Well, the time came and I kinda panicked. Instead of listening to my own voice and praying on it, I allowed the opinions of others (still people I trust though) to stray me away from my decision to quit. I ended up staying longer and really couldn't do it anymore. It wasn't a terrible work environment, BUT I was unfulfilled and knew if I stayed any longer it wouldn't be pretty, so I left. I then gave myself 2 months to set my plans to move in action and here we are now in the midst of month 2 where it's looking like the move isn't happening. Granted the year isn't over yet, and miracles happen everyday, but ya'll I'm scared *nervously laughs*

I never thought I'd be where I am at my big age. As a matter of fact, I have some journal entries from my 20's where I imagined my life in my 30's and let's just say that's not really fun to look at lol. I guess what I'm trying to say through all that in a kind of round about way, is I'm proud of myself for taking a chance on me. I've finally decided to create the life I want for myself, even if every detail isn't as imagined. I guess it's just another part of life to grow through. I can't wait for those lyrics from Church Girl to really hit different when I'm on the other side of all this!

That's all for now. Byeeee.