Took an L on Sunday.

 

It was just a few days ago when I mentioned getting on the apps, right? Well tell me how on Sunday I experienced something straight out of a romantic meet cute movie.

Picture it! I was running errands and decided to stop by one of my fav places- The Dollar (Twenty-Five) Tree. As I'm going down an aisle, I see a man with some nice arms and said to myself "Oh, he's cute". Well when I go to stand in the checkout line guess who's behind me...Mr. Big Arms.

I set my things down on the belt and the cashier starts speaking to me about a mug I was buying and asking if I've ever had black tea. During that exchange, Big Arms got out of line, but started to make his way back just as I was about to get rung up. He says "excuse me, excuse me!" all loud and whatnot so I look at him because why are you so loud?? Lol He sees me looking and says "I like black tea too".

I say "oh, I don't think I've ever had it." He looks at me and says "Neither have I. I was just complementing your skin tone"...I say "lol oh Lord" (because I'm shy and don't know what else to say lol) then he asks if I'm having a tea party or coffee party. I said "coffee is gross" to which he says "Yeah, I don't like it either". I said -smiling- "do you really?? Because now I gotta ask questions." 

This man looks at me again and says "No really, I’m not a fan...but if you take my number down, you can ask me all the questions.” 

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I'm saddened to report that I reverted to my old ways and looked at him, smiled and said "Have a nice day" and walked out the store. 

Once I realized what just happened I felt so much regret I was fighting the air!!! When I got to my car I looked back at the door of the store hoping I'd see him come out, but I saw someone else and knew I'd missed him. I say all that to say, my intention of being present-especially when speaking to men- still isn't going as I thought it would because I keep going back to what's familiar to me.

I honestly can't believe I did that and I haven't stopped thinking about it since it happened. To make myself feel better I’ve been saying that if it's meant to be I’ll see him again, but let’s be fr...can something that was set up so perfectly really happen again with the same person?? Mind you, as a member of the tig ol' bitty committee, not only were the girls covered, but my legs were too. I was still cute though, but giving lots of mystery because I even had shades on! This man still approached me and I just swerved him. Smh so yeah, I took an L on Sunday and I don't feel good about it. Have ya'll ever regretted something like this? If so, please tell me how you got over it because I'm going through it!

Well, that's all for now. Byeee!