Do I have Seasonal Depression?

 

Around this time last year I had a really intense urge to quit my job and feeling the need to go into isolation. Now here I am again getting those same feelings and even feeling super lonely...again. 

It's no secret that I've flipped my life upside down 5 months ago and with the new city and season changes (especially during holiday season) I'm getting heavy waves of overwhelming sadness and all I want to do is cry. At work I don't feel welcome anywhere since I'm the last one from my class still in training and the others are grouped up with people from their classes, I'm going through a personal issue with someone that's making me question a lot, and I'm making even more realizations about the people I call friends.

Because I'm me I started doing some Googling to look into my feelings and if they could be confirmed as depression. Please note that I'm not in the business of self-diagnosing, but I am in the business of staying informed! So I found that Seasonal Depression is now being rebranded as Seasonal Affective Disorder...or SAD for short, how fitting. I find it interesting when things get new names because when was that meeting scheduled and who all decided?? But anyway, this disorder starts in the fall and continues into the winter then a happier version of you emerges in the spring. Some symptoms are social withdrawal, fatigue, and hopelessness.

While these finding helped, what I know is I do NOT want to have the same kind of winter I had last year. My thoughts even scared me at one point in December 2022 and I'd like to not go back to that place again. So how am I trying to beat these SAD allegations? Well, I'm trying to change what I can which is doing activities that make me happy! I've got some concerts lined up, solo date nights, and one-on-one time with a few friends. For my day-to-day though I'm trying to stay on a schedule to get some type of routine going and move my body every day in hopes those endorphins will release it all!

While I try to get my life together, I'd love to know if you've ever dealt with Seasonal Depression and how you got to the other side of it! Welp, that's all for now...byeee!